Trust

Trust is needed in any form of relationship. But trust is very hard to build up. Trust takes time. And when someone breaks that trust, it takes even longer to build it back up. Trust can be broken in an instant but it may take years for that trust to return. It is hard to trust people these days. Everyone lies and people only think of themselves. Trust is very important to me, and here lately I just don't feel like I can trust very many people. Sure I have my friends and of course my family, but other than that there is no one I can truly trust. Trust is needed for life. People have to be able to depend on each other. It hurts me when people break my trust. Without trust people would be lost. Trust is quintessential. 

Blogs

I hate that feeling that you get when you realize the day after blogs are due that half of your blogs are still saved as drafts. I often start a blog but do not post it because I go back and read over it again to make sure there is nothing else I want to add or take out. And then it happens. I think I have all my blogs done because I remember writing them but when I look back not all of them are published. I do not mind writing blogs, I just often like to put more detail in them than I can in class so they get saved as drafts. I hate realizing that all my blogs are not posted in the middle of the night and have to get up to publish them even though it is already too late. It is a rare occasion for it to happen, but when it does it sucks. 

Why did the chicken cross the road?

1. To prove to the possum that it could be done
2. To get to the other side
3. Why are you asking me? Ask the chicken yourself
4. The chicken just wanted to cross the road. What is wrong with that?
5. It had a death wish.

no, No, NO!!

Ways of saying no without actually saying the word no:

1. I can't do that.
2. I'm busy.
3. I have other plans. 
4. I never thought of it that way.
5. That wasn't my intention.
6. My priorities are else where. 
7. Let me know how it goes.
8. I don't know right now.
9. I have a family thing.
10. My parents wouldn't let me.
11. I have commitment issues.
12. I need to think about it.
13. I'll get back to you.
14. I don't think I will have time.
15. It's up to my parents whether I can or not.
16. I wish I could.
17. Maybe.
18. Later.
19. Never in my life.
20. Not a chance.

Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day is a day full of love, well except for the people who are single. For single people, it's a day to feel like complete crap. Honestly I don't really understand the point of Valentine's Day. Why does there have to be a day set aside for someone to show someone else that they love them? Shouldn't love be given on a daily basis? To me Valentine's Day is nothing but a marketing scam. Sure its nice to get flowers or chocolates, but it's all about the marketing. Now don't get me wrong, I will never turn down a Valentine's Day present or not celebrate it when I'm in a relationship, but it still just seems like a big marketing scam. In elementary school Valentine's Day was simple; you never had to worry about not getting a valentine. It was required that you brought a valentine for everyone. No one was left out in elementary school. But then you hit middle school, and they sell these fake carnations in different colors to mean different things. For example, red meant love and yellow meant friendship. The carnations were nice and all but not everyone got one. This is what it really is like. Not everyone gets a valentine like in elementary school. Everyone deserves a valentine but not everyone gets it. Then in high school you start to really think you are getting into what Valentine's Day really is. You have a boyfriend or girlfriend and you go out on a date for Valentine's Day and get each other presents. You feel like you are celebrating the way adults do, but the truth is adults don't celebrate Valentine's Day, at least not to the extent that children do. Adults have a nice dinner or something simple like that. But no matter what age, Valentine's Day is just a waste of money. The only ones who truly benefit from Valentine's Day are the marketing companies. 

Perfectionist

    I am a perfectionist about everything. All my school work has to be done nice and neat and in order. If I take notes and they are too messy I will often rewrite them. I like things to be in order and neat. When it comes to projects I often go over the top. For something that could just be done with a piece of printer paper and coloring pencils, I use scrap-booking paper, fancy scissors, and stickers. I like things to have color and design to them. I guess that is part of the reason I want to be an interior designer. I love colors and all different types of patterns. I don't do a lot of scrap-booking mainly because I don't have time, or I don't have the pictures printed. I would love to just take a weekend to work on my scrapbook but with all my homework and other arrangements I can't. 
    Even when helping my little sister with a school project, I am a perfectionist. I wanted her valentine's day box to be all nice and neat and perfect, but of course it is how she wants it and not me. Her box was still really cute even though I didn't get my way. I miss the days of second grade when you would get projects to take home, have a week to do it, and get to color and use glitter. I miss being in kindergarten where your homework or an assignment would be to just color this picture. But even in coloring I cannot let my crayon or marker go outside the lines. Everything has to be in its place.
    I am a perfectionist and I don't think that will ever change.

Advanced Drama Auditions for Next Year

It's February which means it's time to start thinking about scheduling for next year. With scheduling close, it is time to audition for Advanced Drama. Every year we have to audition just to be in the class. I have been involved in drama throughout high school. I was in Drama I my freshman year and have been in Advanced Drama the past two years. And today I am auditioning to be in Advanced Drama my senior year. I am so nervous. I am auditioning at 4:10. Watching the clock only makes things worse. I know that it will all be fine, but I cannot help being nervous. Being nervous is just something that comes along with acting. You are always nervous before an audition or a performance, but in the end you have a feeling of satisfaction. You spend a lot of time and put a lot of effort in to an audition or a performance but it is worth it in the end. I love acting and I love drama. I cannot wait to get through my audition so my nerves will disappear. But no matter how nervous I am, I don't want to ever stop acting.